Fear

Feeling fear is humanly natural when you imagine losing a person you love so much and who is so, so important for you. Then you try to be positive and trust your intuition, but there is always a soft voice in the background, that hateful soft voice in the background which keeps repeating things you don't wanna hear and get to introduce fear between your skin and your muscle, between the (body) hair and the neck, between a heartbeat and the next.

And it adheres to you inside.

And it doesn't leave until you see him coming, smiling... healthy... safe.

And then you remember all those so many times repeated sentences to repeat them again.

Words based on experiences which you would prefer not to ever live.

- and so, you would never know how many of truth they have inside -.

However, this time there were no need, because everything went well.

From today on, I'm not gonna lose a chance to hug you,

to kiss you,

to say I love you.

So I love you, so much.

Although I know you know it. I know you know it and I hope you will never forget it.